Expendable: Seven Past Eight and Twenty Seconds

I went for another walk today, the last being yester-night. I walked past the dead birds I saw before to the end of my road and back, where I was screamed at by some P-plate driver passengers. Which turned out to be my friends. They asked me if I wanted to go out with them, but I couldn't. I desperately want to now, because there's nothing to do at home, and I could be doing something with some great people.

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I went for a walk with him today. His willingness to listen coincides with my horoscope, which I don't normally believe, but these ones seem accurate enough. He told me that I'm like so many other people when they first meet him - they don't expect him to be emotional on the inside when he's so happy on the outside at school. He's an insomniac. We sat together at some girls' area while they weren't there, and had a small conversation.

He told me I was like a girl he knew. And that she was bashing herself emotionally trying to figure out a way to help him. I am not doing that. But it makes me sad to know there's nothing I can do. We had to go to a speech, so I left him.

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It rained again at school, which made me happy. Jamie was away yesterday because her house flooded. She told me she didn't mind me talking about him.

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I know it's trivial.

-Celine